tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-47737655482735594572024-02-19T04:18:40.497-05:00˚°¤☆The colour of the future ☆¤°˚lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.comBlogger57125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-45644363197069969712014-11-16T01:48:00.000-05:002014-11-16T01:48:24.659-05:00Dream ConcertI'll post the Arashi Blast parts later because I'm pretty busy, and kinda pooped tonight.<br />
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So this semester, I decided to be a little more outgoing, and I joined the Korean Culture Club on campus. I haven't really listened to much kpop other than DBSK and SG Wanabe, but I watch Korean movies sometimes. I did try to go to the Japanese club, but it was just soo boring. It was like a lecture. A very disorganized lecture that made me just want to be on my phone the whole time. Also, I had class right after, so I could only stay for a little while.<br />
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Anyways, the first meeting that I went to, they were talking about holding the Dream Concert in Nov, and they wanted to have 'auditions' that day. I really wasn't very confident in my dancing skills, but I just thought 'why not?' and decided to do it. So they taught a little 30 second guy and girl dances with a freestyle portion (>_<) but I somehow did by just incorporating Arashi dances. Then, a week later there was a 2nd 'audition', and the dances I got were A by Got7 and Sleep-talking by Nu'est.<br />
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Fast forward to now~ the actual concert is on Friday, Nov 21, and we've been practicing like crazy! I think on Friday, we did about 4 hours, and today was about 3 hours. And at least 2 or 3 hours tomorrow, because it's the final check before the concert. And surely some more time during the week, not including 2 dress rehearsals. So exhausting!! I'm glad it's not too busy a week for me.<br />
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But as I typed that, I realized it wasn't true. I have 2 quizzes, a paper and an assignment due on Monday, and a presentation to do on Tuesday, and then I'm free the rest of the week. And there's also a couple of events that I want to go to. -Sigh- It's going to be tiring. Ok, no fooling around and binge watching stuff on Netflix! I gotta be responsible and budget my time! It's such a difficult task, honestly.<br />
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No procrastination, Aarathi! Focus and finish everything in time! I wasted all of Thursday, Friday and Saturday, so I have to focus and work hard tonight and tomorrow! I'll take my books to the final check if I have to!<br />
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I'll only allow Netflix right now because I haven't eaten dinner yet >_< But after that, nothing until Tuesday night!<br />
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Ahh, this is not good, eating at almost 1 AM.lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-89367423468111048532014-11-08T18:30:00.000-05:002014-11-08T18:30:00.160-05:00Arashi Blast Day 1~I guess I should start to write about this! Ok, so let's start from Thursday, Sept 19!<br />
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So, in order to get there around the same time as my friends, my flight was at 6 AM, and since I have no car, I had to book an airport shuttle, which was coming at 3 AM. And me being me, I didn't get to bed till midnight or so? Because the most important thing I had to do the previous day was, clearly, to make my awesome uchiwa.<br />
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And also finish my part of the assignment before I left. And did I mention that I had a test the following Tuesday for the most dull, yet complicated class this semester? How screwed was I? Immensely, because I also missed the first 2 classes while I was at Disney. Way to show how low of a priority school is for you. T_T<br />
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But what's more important? Life experiences that will make you happy for a long time or a (very expensive) piece of paper? I'm digressing. Anyways, I stayed up late, took a shower and woke up ridiculously early to finish packing. I waited outside for the shuttle, when it started to thunder, followed by intense rainfall. It was getting super close to my pick up time, so obviously I was obsessively checking the flight status to make sure it's not delayed. I think my friend was also up around this time, so I was chatting while she got ready to go to the airport. The shuttle finally came, about 15 mins late because of the massive downpour.<br />
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So we were just driving along, and I was the only person on there, therefore no matter how much I wanted to sleep, I stayed awake and was checking Google maps to see where we were. I'm not a paranoid person, but I've watched way too many Criminal Minds episodes to be completely at ease. At one point, it went into a residential area, away from the airport, and I had so much adrenaline running through me, until I realized we were just picking up someone else. It was like 4 AM, on a dark and stormy morning, so you can get why I, a young lady alone in a van, was on such high alert!<br />
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Anyways, got to the airport, got to the gate, anxiously kept checking for flight delays, but thankfully there were none! The flight actually took off in the midst of the rain and lightning, which looked soo cool when I was within it! I ended up sleeping through the rest of the flight though. I landed in LA, decided to get some breakfast, and relax, since I had a 3 hr layover.<br />
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I was talking to someone on tumblr a few weeks before, who was also flying from Austin and going to the concert, and I decided to text her. Turns out she also had a long layover, so we hung out, got some food and talked till I had to board my flight.<br />
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Somehow, I ended up sitting in the middle of a 3 seat section, which doesn't make sense because I ALWAYS pick the window seat! It was annoying, but I dealt with it. I tried to study a little, but I actually fell asleep while reading. When I woke up again, I decided to watch Roommate (Japanese movie). That was seriously messed up. Anyways, we were about to land, and I was super excited!<br />
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I finally arrived in Honolulu! I couldn't believe I was actually here! There was some time before my friends were supposed to come so I walked around a little bit. They finally arrived, and we were so excited! We went to baggage claim so they could get their stuff, and then booked a shuttle to the hotel. Our shuttle guy was really fun to talk to, and we were freaking out every time we saw an Arashi Blast sign (and there were a lot)!<br />
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We were supposed to keep it on the DL that there was a 3rd person staying in the hotel room, because we didn't want to pay extra, so I stood far away while they checked in. I thought there'd be 2 beds but it was a giant king bed. It was big enough for all of us though. We rested for a bit and decided to go to the Arashi Blast store in Shirokiya at Ala Moana Shopping Center, because every 10 mins someone on FB would say that something else was getting sold out.<br />
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We got our stuff, went to the Japanese food court, and got something because I hadn't eaten in hours, since it was already midnight for my body, even though it was only 5 PM in Hawaii. I finally got to eat Hiroshimayaki! So delicious~ I've been wanting to try it since I saw it on Cooking with Dog! We shopped around a bit more, and went to the Disney store and Hot Topic (aka The Store That Must Not Be Named). We got back to the hotel, and decided to go to the beach. Did I mention that there was a beach across from our hotel!?<br />
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It was pretty dark, but really pleasant outside, so we wanted to dip our feet. And of course, we got ridiculously sandy, and had to put towels everywhere while we waited for the shower. After that we decided to sleep "early" because we had to be up by 6 AM to get ready for snorkeling.<br />
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It's super late, and I really should be sleeping so I'll write the other two parts tomorrow night. It's probably going to end up being the same way, with me staying up later than I intended -_-lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-53335432207645002342014-11-07T03:39:00.001-05:002014-11-09T03:29:46.798-05:00Baito?<br />
I haven't really started any new anime since Free Eternal Summer, but I was kinda bored while I was making dinner today, so I decided to start The Devil Is A Part-timer, since it was on Netflix!<br />
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It's hilarious! I was kinda hoping it'd be somewhat like Beelzebub (which I still need to finish, but I think I might just start over and marathon it). Anyways, this did not disappoint! I'm almost done the series, and I wish there was a season 2! Ahh, Maou is so lame, but so cool! <3 nbsp="" p=""><br />
But what am I doing, starting all these new shows when there's a month left until exams and there are so many projects and stuff to finish? I'm enjoying myself here finally, so that's all that matters, really. I felt so homesick and exhausted last semester, but I decided to do more stuff this time, and meet more people with similar interests. I guess once I started feeling more happy, I was able to let go of some hangups and be a little more social (only when I want to be though).<br />
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By the way, this happiness cloud, that I've been on lately, is from the Arashi concert. Even if it was a month and a half ago, I'm still so happy. It's been my dream (or rather, on my bucket list) for a long time, and it was something I thought would never happen. It's difficult to explain what Arashi is to me. I guess their songs, their shows, their personalities helped me through a lot of things, and I was able to open my mind to a whole different perspective sometimes. One thing that hasn't changed: they can always make me smile.<br />
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Interesting enough late night ramblings from me? I should sleep. I got sick somehow last week, and it's being very stubborn. I guess it also doesn't help that I'm up so late everyday. Get this under control already! You're 24 1/2! (Haha)<!--3--></3>lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-81008135778289295762014-09-22T18:41:00.001-04:002014-09-22T18:41:21.849-04:00Arashi BLAST~So, I went to Honolulu over the weekend for the Arashi Blast concert, and just came back yesterday!<br />
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There's absolutely no doubt in my mind that it was a mistake to go in the middle of the school year, or kinda be in debt.<br />
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There's so many things I want to talk about, like how it was the best night/weekend of my life so far.<br />
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But, alas, I have a test tomorrow and class in an hour, so a proper report will have to wait until later.<br />
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<br />lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-70962183882079444362014-08-25T03:58:00.001-04:002014-08-25T03:58:27.406-04:00You are my soul, soulIt's been such a while since I last updated!<br />
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So I did well on my exams, I came home for the summer, and I've had the best one yet! I really missed my home. I know, I know, I'm such a baby for getting so homesick after just being away for 5 months. But it's been tough! The only other time I've kinda been away from home was during first year, and that didn't really count since I would go home every few weeks, mostly whenever I needed to do laundry.<br />
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Anyways, on to my awesome summer. Couple of big trips; I went to NYC with my high school besties for a 4 day trip, and that was just soo amazing, as well as exhausting. I also went to a cottage in a very peaceful area with my family for a week. I don't think I could live there for a long period of time though. The quietness was a little unnerving, and also there was such a weak cell signal.<br />
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Other than that, I got to see my friends multiple times to hang out. I didn't realize I missed them so much until I came back. I've made friends in Texas but obviously, I don't connect to anyone at this level yet. Soon, I hope.<br />
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I still have a couple more trips coming up! I'm leaving this week to go to Disney World! I'm so excited! I've only been to Disneyland before and that too was a while ago, so I don't remember it too clearly. I'm also going to the Wizarding World which I've been awaiting for years!<br />
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And now the most important part: I'm going to see Arashi's 15th anniversary concert in Hawaii!!! I cannot believe that it's actually happening! I had pretty much resigned myself to thinking that I'll just never get to see them in concert in my lifetime, and for the first time, they're letting US and Canadian residents buy tickets! I'm so grateful that my parents are letting me go to this even though it's in the middle of my term!<br />
<br />lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-74002772229483218832014-05-04T23:36:00.002-04:002014-05-04T23:36:46.981-04:00Happy Birthday To Me~ I'm 24! I can't believe it~!<br />
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My day's been incredibly boring though. Unfortunately, tomorrow is the start of exam season and I have an exam at 5, along with an essay. And then one more on Tuesday at 11 AM. So, I've been procrastinating, studying and doing my essay, and I still haven't accomplished much.<br />
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I shouldn't have procrastinated so much, but it is my birthday, and I'm allowed to relax, and talk to friends and family. I can't wait for the next two days to be over so I can go home. I have to remember to clean my room before I leave, and also start packing my suitcase sometime tomorrow. And do laundry. In addition to studying. Ugh.<br />
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This accounting final is stressing me out so much. I need a B and I have a B now but I'm right on the edge, and I need to do really well. But stressing out isn't helping me focus at all!<br />
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Even now, I'm procrastinating. I must get back!lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-88600897954708961992014-04-30T00:55:00.002-04:002014-04-30T00:55:55.224-04:00One weekJust 7 more days until I can go home.<br />
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7 days until I have to ask my parents for something.<br />
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All the other things I have planned don't even matter right now, like seeing my friends, spending time with my family, having some down time, etc.<br />
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Maybe I'm building this up too much in my mind. My brain tends to do that. It comes with these exaggerated scenarios that couldn't possibly happen.<br />
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I just want to sit them down, and get it over with. I'm just going to keep telling myself it won't be so bad.<br />
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In other news, I haven't seriously started studying for exams yet. One week till my accounting one, and that's going to be the big one. I still have a paper to write for Marketing and my Data Mining assignment to submit. I need to pour my energy into this rather than worrying about things that won't happen.lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-30812908010056242002014-04-27T16:50:00.000-04:002014-04-27T16:50:03.945-04:00Anger<div style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #444444; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', HelveticaNeue, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19.600000381469727px; margin-bottom: 10px; outline: none 0px;">
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There was a group paper to write for my Data Mining class, and this one girl would never get in touch with the rest of us, or even come to classes. So, my friend and I worked on the main content of the paper. Then, this girl finally emails the Friday before it’s due and says, “I’m happy to do whatever parts that are left!”, which is just the intro and conclusion. So we let her do it, even though it’s such an unfair contribution. </div>
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And two weeks after that, we also have a 15 minute presentation. And again, no reply or contact to our multiple texts. So my friend and I do the powerpoint. And we also tell the professor what’s been going with her. He says he’ll do group evaluations in the last class, but we’ll see what happens.</div>
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Anyway, she texted us yesterday saying, “Have you started on the presentation? I’m happy to put it together or do whatever parts are left!” Pretty much the same thing she sent when we were mostly done the paper. My friend and I were hoping she was just not going to come to the last class. Ughhh, she makes me so mad!! Stop leeching of our hard work!! My friend and I were hoping she was just not going to come to the last class.</div>
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Just one more day, and I won’t have to deal with her again.</div>
lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-66256268195038677342014-04-21T01:02:00.001-04:002014-04-21T01:02:22.949-04:00Almost DoneI haven't written here for a while. But, I guess that's because I have Tumblr, and I've been kinda busy. It's not like anyone actually reads this.<br />
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Lately, my weekends have been like this one, except for last week when I went to see a movie with my friends. You know how you have those times where you don't want any human contact? I guess, in my case, I don't want to talk to anyone face-to-face or on the phone. Despite feeling like that, I was still feeling pretty lonely. I mean, I did talk to my cousin, and my parents yesterday morning, but then I just got this feeling, and I've just been ignoring my mom's messages to call her. I'm doing this a lot, and just passing it off as forgetting or being busy with school, even though I'm not.<br />
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It's a pretty crummy feeling. I'm feeling homesick, but I'm pretty nervous to actually have to go home. Being by myself isn't satisfying. Being at home might not feel satisfying. There's a conversation I need to have with my parents when I go home, and probably every time we talk on the phone, I think about it, and I clam up. I'm really nervous about it. I need to ask for something, and I'm scared about their reactions.<br />
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I mean, at least I have something to talk about to someone next time.lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-1603400029758944722012-07-29T20:07:00.000-04:002012-07-29T20:07:15.965-04:00DistractedOh god, oh god, I'm panicking a little bit, because I have just realized what I did.<br />
Not like it's a bad thing, but it's making my head explode a little every time I think about it.<br />
I want to talk to my best friend about but she's all the way at her university and I probably won't see her till both our exams are finished.lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-32022582339330099382012-06-10T23:00:00.003-04:002012-06-10T23:00:27.864-04:00PiecesSometimes, I think that I'd give anything to be one of those people who really have a grip on what they'd like to do with their lives. I mean, it's not like it's a bad thing, taking it one day at a time and having ever-changing dreams.<br />
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I just wonder what it would have been like if I really stuck with what my dreams from when I was a kid.<br />
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I'm still young, I guess, so it's ok to not have everything decided right now. But I feel like it'll be a life of something that I'm just tolerating, instead of living.<br />
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I want to have something that I'm so passionate about so that nothing else matters. I have to find it somehow.<br />
<br />lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-80123140709113278592012-06-05T02:42:00.000-04:002012-06-05T02:44:34.361-04:00Summer's coming!Yes, I am procrastinating. I should be doing the French homework or be recopying my micro notes, instead I decided to do this because I haven't written in a while.<br />
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My summer courses are passing by really quickly! I'm happy I'm only taking 2 instead of the 3 I was originally planning to take this term.. that would have definitely stressed me out too much! It was a 4th year International Studies course about war and its philosophies, and I couldn't understand anything since I'm an econ major, and not a sociology major.<br />
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Anyways, I just wanted to share some pictures~ Granted, I've already done so on Facebook and tumblr, but I'm so proud of them that I want to post it everywhere! Well, that was a bit of a lie.. I am proud of it, but everytime I look at them, my eyes criticize every small mistake I made and I scold myself about the million ways I could have made it better.<br />
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I suppose I could call these my series of objects from books/movies! I think I just started up with making stuff out of clay again when I felt it was absolutely necessary that I have a Snitch necklace haha. And then, last month, I decided to make Sarah a Mockingjay pin because we're both huge fans of the Hunger Games! Finally, I have become very obsessed with Loki in the past few months, so I decided to make a ring out of his helmet! <3<br />
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<br />lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-66260804376110668372012-05-03T00:41:00.001-04:002012-05-03T00:41:59.057-04:00TomorrowI'll be turning 22 tomorrow. While I'm writing this, I'm going to try to not be pessimistic and criticize myself for my mistakes over the past 22 years. Mistakes have been made, but I do have a great life, with my family and friends supporting me.<br />
What's done is done, right? And all I can do is try to be a better person from now on. I don't know if I've really changed much from last year. Maybe, I've grown up a little more and I'm thinking of things outside my own little bubble. Though, it's a bubble I'm not ready to leave yet.<br />
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I guess four years ago, I thought I'd be graduating by now, and, either going to graduate school or finding a job. Well, I'm not doing a lot of things that I thought I would be doing by now, but I don't think I'm in a bad place right now. I could possibly be going to Japan or I could have one last year at university and really prepare myself to get out into the real world, and figure out what I want to do. Because it feels like I'm wasting away my life doing nothing worthwhile each day.<br />
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Maybe I should set a goal for myself, to accomplish something, even if it's a tiny thing, just so I can feel good about myself lol. I actually wrote some stuff down after I finished my exams, like I'll do 5 kanji a day, or I'll study 4 french verbs a day. Yeah, didn't really do that, mostly because it bored me I guess? <br />
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Haha, so I'm going to keep thinking and see where that goes.lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-68783080511572693402012-04-20T15:01:00.003-04:002012-04-20T15:01:57.100-04:00ThinkingI finished my last exam on Wednesday. It's an understatement to say it didn't go well. But, I've become strangely resistant to that feeling now, and it's worrying.<br />
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I knew how important it was that I did well, but I still didn't put in the effort. Others can say that you worked hard, but I'm the only one who knows, right? I did work hard, but at the same time, I also lost my motivation, so in the end it would probably not be seen as hard work.<br />
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The one thing I wanted the most, the one thing that I honestly had been 100% sure that I would be able to get at the beginning of this year, was destroyed by me.<br />
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Still, there is a slight chance, however tiny it may be. I am safe for now, but, if I sabotage myself again, then I won't be able to go. So, I can't fool around in the summer.<br />
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I have a lot of fears and uncertainties going through my mind right now, about which I want to talk to someone. I don't think it'll help, seeing as they can only offer either comforting words or false hope. Also, I'm afraid that once I voice them out, they will become real, and it won't be as easy to pass off as me over-thinking something.lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-86448185770119052422012-04-12T18:30:00.000-04:002012-04-12T18:30:40.075-04:00A little bit more~!I had a lot of fun yesterday~! I met other people going to Japan, and one of them is going to the same university! And I also met a girl who returned from the university that I'm going to attend! I got a lot of my questions answered, and also learned that it's not going to be a complete breeze, suddenly living in a different country!<br />
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As nervous and excited as I am, I really can't research and think about this right now! I have 2 more exams to get through (where I need to get excellent grades) to pull up my GPA! And then I can do whatever preparations I want for Japan without feeling guilty!<br />
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Why am I even on my blog? I don't know.. I'm going back to studying! I have 4 chapters of math to go through before Sunday!! And why do I have a Sunday exam in the first place?! It's my 2nd year in a row having a Sunday one.. >.<<br />
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Here's an excellent Harry Potter Medley that I'm listening to on repeat!<br />
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<br />lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-75225081450642154462012-04-11T01:32:00.001-04:002012-04-11T01:32:36.183-04:00Excited!~Tomorrow's the pre-departure training for the exchange! It's going to be all day, from 8:15 AM - 5:30 PM! What are we going to be doing for the whole day? :o<br />
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I'm really excited to meet other people who are going to Japan! My friend from my Japanese class is going to a different university, but she's going to be in Tokyo too! Ahh I'm so excited and scared at the same time!<br />
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So before I go to the training, I'm supposed to fill out this host country questionnaire, and it has a lot of different types of questions about the culture, background, health, safety and academics of Japan. So while researching, I came across a lot of racism directed towards foreigners, and I'm wondering if a lot of people are going to react like that. I have meet some exchange students who came here, and they are the sweetest bunch of people I have met, so obviously, I can't generalize something like that!<br />
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Anyways, I finally finished that tedious questionnaire! I learned a lot of stuff actually. I don't think I would have thought to check all this stuff on my own!<br />
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Time to sleep, and then wake up in about 5 hours so I can catch my bus! >_<lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-28501513999018531522012-04-01T10:24:00.000-04:002012-04-01T10:24:41.863-04:00Cannot understandI woke up pretty early for a Sunday~! I have to finish my part of the math assignment by tomorrow, so I'm doing it all now. However, I underestimated how long it will take me to do it because these formulas are a little hard to understand. And I hit an unexpected bump yesterday which had me in fit of panic.<br />
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I didn't buy the current version of my math textbook because it was like $120, and I just bought the previous version from someone, which was $25. As I started to do my assignment yesterday, I noticed that my previous edition book didn't have a Chapter 9. I thought that was a mistake, since the assignment was clearly on Chapter 9. So I looked up the Table of Contents of the new book, and there was a Chapter 9.<br />
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I have a tendency to not notice tiny things like that. And look how it came to bite me in the butt. A large part of the exam will be based on this chapter too, and I don't have it! Not to mention, I won't be able to finish the assignment! There was no time to borrow it from someone either. So I ended up finding an online version which was about $70 cheaper than the bookstore, and I figured this I don't really have much of a choice, so I ended up buying it.<br />
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<br />lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-17855841333830419132012-03-10T08:28:00.001-05:002012-03-10T08:28:17.980-05:00DreamIt's been a while! Haha I don't know why I haven't posted here! Guess it's just been a little busy.<br />
Anyways, today is the Ontario Speech Contest in which I'm representing my university!<br />
I woke up about 15 minutes before my alarm because of a weird, somewhat foreshadowing dream about today. Well, I had 2 actually.<br />
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In the first one, I went and did my speech, then I left my seat and went home. Then, I was playing with my brother, when I look at the time. It's 6:15, and they're apparently supposed to announce the results at 6:30, and I was freaking out that I wasn't there! If I wasn't at the place when they announce results, then I'm disqualified! So I cried because I probably lost.<br />
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My second dream was less dramatic. At the beginning of my speech, I ask a couple of questions. So when I asked them, people in the audience started answering them, which is a bad thing because it kept throwing me off! And the whole thing is being timed so I dreamed that I went over and got penalized ! And it was all because of the stupid audience! :(<br />
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Well, even though it's only 8:30, I still have a lot of stuff to do before going to contest place, so I should get ready now!<br />
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I can totally do it and win today!! I'll be confident and speak clearly and not get nervous! I just have to remember how hard I worked at this! :D<br />
<br />lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-88119610026006124332011-12-20T06:26:00.001-05:002011-12-20T06:26:15.568-05:00Bad luck.I have my last exam tonight, so obviously I was studying very hard yesterday! I found a quiet study room in my university and I just studied for 4 or 5 hours straight. Soon, it was time to go home, and I had to go to the washroom. While I was washing my hands, I looked at my reflection, and got a huge shock!<br />
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MY RIGHT EYE WAS COMPLETELY RED! I freaked out so much..! What the heck happened to my eye? My eyes were irritated all day, but I thought it was from lack of sleep! Maybe I was too stressed and blood vessels had broken underneath..! But, yeah, I freaked out and immediately called my mum! She sounded a little worried too, and said that she would take me to the doctor when she picked me up from the bus station.<br />
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As usual, the bus was late, and I had about an hour and a half (including wait time) to sit there and worry about what was going on with my eye. I seriously think I'm a hypochondriac. I just kept going through all these scenarios in my head about what it could be, but I suppose none of them were "realistic".<br />
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Anyways, I got picked up at the bus station, and we went to the clinic. Everyone did a double take at my eye, and then they tried not to stare at it. -_- I mean, I checked in the mirror, after I got in the car, and it wasn't as red as before! After waiting for 5-10 minutes, I got to see a doctor. Lol, he took one look at my eye and made a diagnosis in 10 seconds. He said that it was an infection and I should use anti-bacterial eye drops.I wonder how it happened. I don't carry around a hand sanitizer and clean my hands every minute, but it's not like my hands are filthy! Maybe I somehow caught from another person.. ><<br />
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Either way, I'm keeping my distance from people for now. I've been doing that for a while since I didn't want to catch the flu or the cold from people.<br />
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Time to continue studying. I've been so unmotivated this year..! But one good thing did happen yesterday! I handed in my application for the exchange! Yay~ and in 2 weeks or so, they're going to start the interviews! I have to prepare for that!lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-75520509024107764622011-12-17T04:22:00.002-05:002011-12-17T04:22:26.262-05:00Leave me alone!<br />
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I don’t usually do things like this but I just need to rant a little because it’s been happening too much these past few weeks! You don’t really have to read this. </div>
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Why can’t people get off my back about being a vegetarian?! Is that so odd?! At work, when someone is doing a demo of some meat product, they urge me to try it and I tell them “No thanks, I’m a vegetarian”, they try to pressure me anyways! It pisses me off, but I don’t ever show it. Just smile and ignore. </div>
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Sure, they’re curious so they ask me questions. No problem. I’ll try my best to answer them. No, it’s not because of religion. No one is forcing me. It’s not because of my family seeing as my dad and brother eat meat, and my mom eats seafood. No, I have never really been curious enough to try it. I’ve been vegetarian since birth. Yeah, I eat egg. I’m missing out? Whatever. That’s your opinion. I’m content with my lifestyle.</div>
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I’m crazy? That’s just plain rude! What I eat isn’t real food? Now why would you say that? Stuff like that irritates me the most! And no, I don’t just eat raw vegetables every day! </div>
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It’s not like I’m still holding a grudge about this but when I was in high school, my friends and I were at the mall, and they decided to get sushi (real sushi, lol and not what I eat) at the food court. And they pressured me to eat a salmon roe one. My chopstick holding skills were pretty bad back then so I kept dropping it and all of the little eggs fell off. And then I ate it. I knew there was nothing else on it except for rice and seaweed, but just the thought of it made me sick to my stomach. Why? I have no idea! Maybe there’s some mental block in my mind telling me how wrong it is for me and I made myself sick.</div>
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Yeah, I don’t know. I’m just getting a little tired of justifying my reasons to others regarding this matter. Isn’t just saying that it’s my choice enough? Sure, I care about animals and their right to live and all, but honestly, that’s not a big part of this. </div>
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Anyways, if you read through this, thanks. I just wanted to say what was bothering me lately. At 4:20 AM. Work’s going to be fun tomorrow. </div>lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-76379278893003004302011-11-14T06:22:00.001-05:002011-11-14T06:49:45.330-05:00ComplainingHaha, I've noticed that pretty much all my recent posts have been about me complaining about something, but why not? :P<br />
It's my blog, so here I am complaining about being under stress again!<br />
Although, it's usually my fault that I put myself under stress by slacking off.<br />
Here's all the things I did to currently raise my stress level so high:<br />
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<li>Obviously, I procrastinated, by not doing my readings/practice problems on time.</li>
<li>Why, oh why did I value entertainment during such an important time?! Maybe I should block YouTube until next week, and Facebook, of course</li>
<li>Two tests within 12 hours of each other this week, and also good thing that my essay due on Wed got delayed to next week </li>
<li>Skipping classes to study, then not studying</li>
<li>NO SLEEEEEEP~ (Very little sleep, actually) I've been a tired little zombie for the past few weeks. The 30-40 minutes of sleep time I get on the bus is not enough -_- </li>
<li>Not eating right either</li>
<li>Excessive internets that is not related to studying..! </li>
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Well, there's probably more stuff, but I'm running out of time before I have to go catch the train, so it's time to go. I've been really bad the past few weeks, and I ended up skipping classes. Of course, there was a legitimate reason for the week before last, when I sprained my ankle AGAIN! *sigh* </div>
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Time to pack up quickly and leave.. >_<</div>
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<br />lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-84865921497916428302011-10-05T09:27:00.001-04:002011-10-05T09:27:36.039-04:00Busy, busy busy~!So it's been a month already since university started, and things are busier than ever! D: Not that it's stopping me from procrastinating.. which is a very very bad habit. -_-<br />
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But I really shouldn't! This year is super important, as in I have to work really hard and bring my grades up! BECAUSE:<br />
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I got freezing and laughing gas, but I really did not want to see the dentist's bloody tools, gloves, and him saying random worrying things like, "It's seems to have gone deeper than we originally thought. I hope it won't be a problem." He put something on my finger, which measured my heart beat, and I could hear it going crazy sometimes! Like it was steady for a while, then all of a sudden, it started beating really quickly and made a very strange noise! Even the dentist had to stop for a minute to see what was going on, but I guess I was getting nervous, even though it didn't feel like it. Well, I was breathing laughing gas, I suppose. Haha, my mom said it was supposed to make me high, but I guess I was just so nervous, it just made me more calm. </div>
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I don't know if the freezing didn't work too well on one tooth, or if it was way too close to my jaw nerve, but I felt some pain while it was being pulled out! Not too bad though. What hurt the most was when he was trying to remove the upper teeth, and he had to pretty much yank the sides of my mouth to stretch it since it wasn't big enough. And obviously, there was no numbing out there, so it hurt like hell. I just gripped the sides of the chair and just closed my eyes till it was over. </div>
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I guess today will be a relaxing day, since any movement is painful. >_< Maybe I'll just finish reading 'The Time Traveler's Wife' and watch some movies. The book is amazing by the way. I love the narration style, where it's a 1st person view from the Henry and Clare of different time periods. I'm starting to think though, maybe I should be watching the movies before reading the books, because I get my hopes up so much and I'm so utterly disappointed when I see how they cut out or changed stuff, even though I know that it's inevitable. </div>
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Anyways, I'm going to slowly drink my hot chocolate with milk, and read. Here's a picture from Ikemen desu ne, to which I've really gotten addicted! </div>
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lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-78114097582372621182011-08-26T15:01:00.000-04:002011-08-26T15:01:00.091-04:00Je reviens!So I'm back from Quebec and Trois-Pistoles~ I guess that was about two weeks ago! I miss it soo much! But I'll blog about that later because my laptop has crashed and I have no way of obtaining my pictures right now.. T_T<br />
But it was a truly unforgettable trip! :)<br />
I miss everyone so much, especially all the vegetarians that I ate with and my housemates, but some of them live kinda close by, so hopefully we can meet up again someday! <3<br />
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I'm really bored right now.. I'm somewhat ready for school to start, but I do want to meet all my friends who go to university in another city before that.<br />
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Here's some random and awesome illustrations that I found on <a href="http://www.piccsy.com/">piccsy.com</a><br />
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lilydarke4http://www.blogger.com/profile/09838093390885855397noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4773765548273559457.post-16097042171284627392011-07-07T19:55:00.000-04:002011-07-07T19:55:17.198-04:00The EndI can't believe it's finally next week.. <br />
I'm so incredibly saddened and excited for this moment. Even when the last book came out, it didn't really feel like it was finished since there were still a few more movies to come out.<br />
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I'm just so happy to be able to watch them all and have grown up with it. It's been 10 long years, but it's finally here.<br />
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I just know I'm going to cry a little while watching Part 2. Part 1 was extremely well done, except for a few minor details, but that's only me being a little anal about it being really close to the book. It really captured the emotions well. So I really want to see how the Part 2 turns out. <br />
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