˚°¤☆The colour of the future ☆¤°˚

I'm 24! I can't believe it~!

My day's been incredibly boring though. Unfortunately, tomorrow is the start of exam season and I have an exam at 5, along with an essay. And then one more on Tuesday at 11 AM. So, I've been procrastinating, studying and doing my essay, and I still haven't accomplished much.

I shouldn't have procrastinated so much, but it is my birthday, and I'm allowed to relax, and talk to friends and family. I can't wait for the next two days to be over so I can go home. I have to remember to clean my room before I leave, and also start packing my suitcase sometime tomorrow. And do laundry. In addition to studying. Ugh.

This accounting final is stressing me out so much. I need a B and I have a B now but I'm right on the edge, and I need to do really well. But stressing out isn't helping me focus at all!

Even now, I'm procrastinating. I must get back!

I'll be turning 22 tomorrow. While I'm writing this, I'm going to try to not be pessimistic and criticize myself for my mistakes over the past 22 years.  Mistakes have been made, but I do have a great life, with my family and friends supporting me.
What's done is done, right? And all I can do is try to be a better person from now on. I don't know if I've really changed much from last year. Maybe, I've grown up a little more and I'm thinking of things outside my own little bubble. Though, it's a bubble I'm not ready to leave yet.

I guess four years ago, I thought I'd be graduating by now, and, either going to graduate school or finding a job. Well, I'm not doing a lot of things that I thought I would be doing by now, but I don't think I'm in a bad place right now. I could possibly be going to Japan or I could have one last year at university and really prepare myself to get out into the real world, and figure out what I want to do. Because it feels like I'm wasting away my life doing nothing worthwhile each day.

Maybe I should set a goal for myself, to accomplish something, even if it's a tiny thing, just so I can feel good about myself lol. I actually wrote some stuff down after I finished my exams, like I'll do 5 kanji a day, or I'll study 4 french verbs a day. Yeah, didn't really do that, mostly because it bored me I guess?

Haha, so I'm going to keep thinking and see where that goes.