˚°¤☆The colour of the future ☆¤°˚

Sometimes, I think that I'd give anything to be one of those people who really have a grip on what they'd like to do with their lives. I mean, it's not like it's a bad thing, taking it one day at a time and having ever-changing dreams.

I just wonder what it would have been like if I really stuck with what my dreams from when I was a kid.

I'm still young, I guess, so it's ok to not have everything decided right now. But I feel like it'll be a life of something that I'm just tolerating, instead of living.

I want to have something that I'm so passionate about so that nothing else matters. I have to find it somehow.

Ahh it's 3 in the morning! But I don't feel like sleeping yet! :3
 I'll write this quickly so I can sleep! Haha I always do this! I think I'm gonna sleep and I get distracted with something! My poor eyes Q.Q

Hmm tomorrow (well, today), I think I'm gonna dye my hair! It's been like a year and 5
 months since the last time I guess, but I really want some light hair for the summer (and for cosplay)!
I'm doing it in Palty Caramel Brown!

I don't really expect it to turn that colour, but just a nice, shiny brown! It's supposed to work well on Asian hair, and since I am in fact from Asia, and have super black hair, it should lighten it! :D
I'm a little nervous though! I've never actually dyed it by myself! The last time I did it at home, my friend helped me with it, but this time, I'll be on my own! Well she was supposed to come this weekend and help me, but she couldn't T_T

Anyways, I'll just do it reeeally carefully tomorrow and hopefully it turns out well! *fingers crossed*

And Wed, I have my Development Econ test x_x I was really stupid and distracted this weekend and I didn't study at all! I've got 2 more days, I suppose, so I better read like 3 chapters a day!

I finally started working on my cosplay too! XD AN is less than 2 weeks away and I'm only starting now~ Hopefully, I'll be able to get everything done on time! I finished my frilly choker thing today and probably Tuesday, I'm going to start on the gloves! Hopefully, on Thursday or Tuesday next week, I can go to Pmall and get my pink umbrella!

Found this on another blog, but I thought I should put this here too so I can follow it~!

Mmm..now that exams are over, I am filled with an empty hole called boredom.

I think I'm getting back into my hime craze again~! Because spring/summer is definitely the best for this type of thing (And Canadian winters suck because you can't compromise warmth for cute clothes)! Skirts, dresses, lacey stuff, pink stuff, bows, ribbons, flowers and just generally pretty stuffI! <3
Haha I don't really own much stuff like that, but with the help of my mom and the sewing machine, maybe I'll be able to change some stuff! I has such a big obsession with lace and ruffles  :*.;.*・;・^;・:＼(*^▽^*)/:・;^・;・*.;.*:

*sigh* Have to finish cleaning and throwing stuff out before the weekend...! Since it's a long weekend, they'll take away as many garbage bags as we put out! And my family and I are going to this resort too! It's near Algonquin Park and there's a lake, trails and a spa (probably not going there)! Must not take the laptop! And I should spend as much time as I can outside!

Ok, back to cleaning! :3

Oh man, I seriously can't even get up to go to my 2nd last day of classes..! Even though I know that I have to go get calculus notes from last week's class, and seeing as I have a French test tomorrow, I should also be going to the last review class.. right? But damn it... It's Monday, and I really don't feel like leaving the house! >.<
But I know that I have to gooo...

I mean, I'll be lazing around at home on Wed anyways, since classes end tomorrow!   

Maybe I should just ask someone to send me the notes...  but then I've got to be totally productive today! So I shall do some calculus, finish doing the exercises in my cahier, and, because it somewhat calms me down, I'll write some kanji! I have to fool around less!

Today's picture: Their smiles can warm my heart on such a cold, cold day~

Can you believe that it was snowing again yesterday?! Canada... *shakes fist* Let it be spring weather already!

Last week~!
It was kind of hell at work this weekend.. but I don't really want to talk about it! I'm bad at dealing with jerks...

That aside, I got my final mark for economics back already!! While I was at the maid cafe, I happened to look at my phone, and I noticed an email from my professor. The test was the same day, so I knew he would mark it before the day was over. However I didn't expect him to calculate the final mark already too! When I got back home, I gathered my courage, and opened the pdf with the marks of the whole class. And...

This was seriously one of the hardest courses I've ever taken.. And it doesn't help that I was really not prepared for this. Why can't they update the official requirements to show that you really do need other courses if you want to be able to understand the contents better? Because that's exactly what my professor did for the 2011-2012 session. :( But, whatever.. it's done now! I'm honestly not even upset that I passed with such a meager mark.. I just never wanted to take it again. Like my dad says, some courses you have to do and pass, the marks don't matter! I'm confident that my other courses (i.e. my language courses) will balance this out, so I'm not too worried! Gotta keep my GPA up so I can go to 日本 in a couple of years! 

Also, they've already released the fall schedule for my campus, so I planned out my courses yesterday! My schedule literally looks like a T! Haha, I have morning classes from Monday to Thursday, and then on Wed, I have classes for 9 straight hours, from 9 AM - 6 PM. Maybe the timings of my classes will change later... :( Hopefully, something or the other will finish early, so I can have at least a little break! The only class I don't know about is Japanese! But that lecture schedule will probably be released in May/June. 

I'm clearly only writing this because I'm distracting myself from studying for calculus. So I shouldn't do that... I have to go at 3, so I can make it in time for my Japanese test! 

Ok, I'm making a definite promise here! On Friday, after most  tests are done, I will begin cleaning my room! I'll start with the side with the bookshelf, and clean all weekend if I have to! So it can look as pretty as the ones I like to look at in インテリア雑誌!

And one last thing, I've been rewatching Digimon Adventures (the 1st season), and relieving my childhood! Of course, I'm only doing something like this when I'm supposed to be busy as hell studying for all my tests.. >_<

J`aime les Mardis le plus!
Comme ma classe commence à 16h, je peux étudier chez moi!
Mais cette semaine est le pire.. Demain, j`ai un examen de statistiques. Et Jeudi, j`ai le dernière examen d`economie et un examen du Japonais. La semaine prochaine sera la même chose. J`ai un autre examen du Japoinais, un examen du calcul, et un examen de Français! 
Je veux l`été à venir!
Maintenant, je pratique mon kanji pour l`examen en Jeudi. Je suis très excité pour Jeudi! Àprés les examens, je irai à Hamilton pour rencontrer mes amis! Ils font un 'Maid Café' à Mac. Je ne les ai pas rencontrés depuis 3 mois!
Yay~ J`ai fini les kanji!
-_- C`est le temps pour les maths... ><

頑張って、アーちゃん！

I can't believe that my 2nd year is going to finish in a few weeks! It's the crucial part now, isn't it?
I've got to work hard with the math courses and bring my mark up! There's still 70% of the mark left to be calculated, so I should be able to do it! What on earth is going in calculus now anyways? What is a hyperbola? I told myself I'd look it up when I got home, so maybe I should do that.


A hyperbolic function is a function of an angle expressed as a relationship between the distances from a point on a hyperbola to the origin and to the coordinate axes, as hyperbolic sine or hyperbolic cosine: often expressed as combinations of exponential functions. - From dictionary.com

o_o ... I think I need to think that through a little... 

Hmm I have to improve my French mark too! I still need to learn more words so I can actually speak without having to struggle and come up with the word in a different language. I've got a mini-contrôle tomorrow.. hope I can remember all the new words! I always have the most trouble with that part!

I haven't made a single thing recently.. so I'm feeling a little depressed~ The last time I made something was my little star-dust ball pendant (which ended up breaking, so I still have to fix it). And then I kinda lost my round nose pliers somewhere in my room, and it's been very difficult to locate. That probably has something to do with the mess.. ^.^" I need to cleeeannnn! I think my messy environment is also getting me down! I really want to make something! I can't wait till after April 5th! At least after that I'll be able to relax a little more while studying math! And after Apr 16th and 17th, I'll be completely free, and hopefully with a clean room!

Sure, I get super motivated to clean when my friends are coming over, but otherwise, I don't think I'm bothered because of my messiness.. It's certainly not a good habit to have...If I ever live in an apartment with someone, I think my roommate probably won't ever come into my room! :(

Ok, getting off topic! Gotta clean the room! That's what I need to do.. THIS WEEK! I'm pooped on the weekend anyways after work, so obviously not on those days. Whyyy is there so much to do with so little time!? I think, since I'm off Friday and the house will be peaceful with no one to bother me, I shall clean then! But I need something to make me do it on the actual day.. I don't think my determination to clean everything up can last for another 3 days! o_o

I'll be 21 soon. So.. I have to do this! On my own! And then I want to decorate! I've kept all my posters under my bed for 6 months because everything was still messy! I want my Arashi wall... D:

Oh no.. it's already 1:25 AM...I have to sleep and go to class early. Hopefully I get a lot of sleep on the bus/train, depending on when I wake up. And with that, I'm off to bed! Here's some cute pictures I found!

































I really want to make something like this already!! I already bought the silicone and icing tip already too.. =3

Soon.. soon.. Just have to be patient till tests are over!

I'm so very very scared for Thursday! It's too late to back out of my econ class so I'm really scared of the test! But I still have almost 4 days to make sure I completely memorize this chapter!
I really wish someone would have told me this wasn't a course to be taken in first year... ;_;
Somehow.. somehow I'll get through it! Thank goodness my French and Japanese marks are really up there! I think I would cry if all my other marks started getting dragged down like this one course..!

I'm feeling good recently! All the negativity from before seems to have disappeared. And I've started to get along with everyone much better too. Haha I think for like 2 or 3 weeks I skipped a bunch of classes, and I was moody during the tutorials, but I'm better now! I've started feeling that coming here and suddenly changing universities wasn't a wrong choice. But I think that one year there will always have a special place in my heart. I'm glad they haven't forgotten me either. <3


Hmm, so what else? I was looking through my DS games on the computer, and I found this one called '99 no namida'. The purpose of this game is to make you cry. So sometimes, you have days when you're really stressed and nothing feels like it's going right. You want to cry, but for some reason you can't. So play the game, read a story, and cry.

I actually quite like this game. The graphics give off this melancholy feeling, but they're still beautiful. Rather than depressing, I think it's peaceful. So anyways, you go to this bar at the beginning of the game, and the master asks you a few questions about your mood, how your day has been, etc. And then he gives you a story.  After the story, you write your impressions and rate how sad it was to you, ranging from 'I didn't feel anything' (I think.. I don't remember the exact words) to 'Tears came out'.

I've played it twice so far. I didn't really cry at the first story. It was about a mother and daughter who don't get along because the girl works as a hostess. However, the mother is suddenly hospitalized, and when the daughter comes to visit, she sees her mother looking sick and in a coma, so she tries to make her look pretty by giving her a pedicure. She comes everyday and takes care of her like this and eventually the mother wakes up and tells her to follow her dream, which is to open a nail salon someday. So the daughter quits her job and starts working in a nail salon, hoping to make other women feel happy by giving them pretty nails. So it's a nice story... just not enough to cry at.

I cried while reading the 2nd one. This boy was living with his mother after his parents divorced and his mother had to work a lot of jobs to support their lifestyle. However, every morning, she would give him a bento before going off to work. His friends tease him about it so he tells her that he'll buy his lunch from now on, but his mother still makes him a bento every morning. He wakes up in the middle of the night one day, and he happens to see his mother in the kitchen looking up recipes and murmuring "Maybe he'll like this." So he decides that the next day, he'll tell her that he'll take the bento. However, when he's starting to leave the next morning, he finds his mother on the floor. At the hospital, the doctor tells him that she's exhausted and stressed. His aunt comes to find him and tells him what his mother's been going through. She thought that she couldn't give him a perfect lifestyle since he doesn't have a father, but at least she wanted to give him a bento everyday so he wouldn't feel like he's losing out on anything. So the next day, he properly apologizes to his mom, and thanks her for thinking about him so much.

I kinda went through a rebellious phase like that too, so I cried a little! I wonder what tonight's story will be~ ちょっと楽しみ! Haha although that can't be the right word!

Speaking of crying, I also cried when I watched this video. I haven't really looked up the translation of the lyrics, but the video itself is such a sad and beautiful love story.. :(





And with that, I'm going to sleep and somehow wake up at 6:30! Also, Happy Valentine's Day! I really want to  ~ :\

Lately, I've been really into Utsukushii Rinjin!

"A sudden encounter between a gracefully attractive but mysterious woman, Saki (Nakama Yukie), and an ordinary housewife, Eriko (Dan Rei), who has a happy family, causes Eriko’s serene daily life to fall apart. Eriko’s husband, Shinji (Watabe Atsuro) becomes the target of Saki’s advances and finds himself caught between her and his wife." - From dramawiki

Haha I never imagined I'd be someone who would be so addicted to this type of drama! Even more so than my beloved detective dramas! Drama between housewives is way too interesting! Haha, I'm interested in ones with affairs lately!

Saki-san is just too amazing! She's so skillful, when she becomes close with everyone around Eriko-san, it seems like she's trying to replace her! But some fault lies with those people too, I suppose, because they're so easily convinced that Saki-san is a better replacement..! Uwaa, she just psychologically scared a kid too... who was bullying Shun-kun! I can guess that she wants a life to replace her previous one without a child, husband or friends...! I hope Eriko-san can figure out that Saki-san's not really a friend and she's the one turning everyone in her life against her...

Another thing I never thought I'd get into is Beelzebub! It's just way too funny!


















"The story follows the "strongest juvenile delinquent", Oga Tatsumi, a first year in "Ishiyama High" the school for delinquents. One day while sleeping next to a river he sees a man floating down it, he pulls him to shore and the man splits in half revealing a baby boy. This boy is the son of the demon king and he has been chosen as the one to raise it with the baby's demon maid Hilda. The story follows his life with the child and at the delinquent school." -ANN

I honestly don't watch much anime, except for Detective Conan (which I'm still in the process of finishing). I'm more of a drama type. But I was just looking through a list of ones from this season with my friend at uni, and we clicked on this to see what it's like. It was the randomest thing ever! Soo funny! This is the one type I usually stay away from, because it's got delinquents, a lot of noise, and things that don't make sense! But I ended up really liking it! I even got my little brother to watch it with me! I think the transporter guy (his real name's too long so I can never remember it) is my favourite! So every week, I eagerly await the new episode :P

I'm getting hungry.. time to go eat breakfast! Today's a busy day..! I have to finish 2 assignments, a ton of math homework & French listening excercises.. and if I have time, study for econ and practice kanji!