˚°¤☆The colour of the future ☆¤°˚

It's been such  a while since I last updated!

So I did well on my exams, I came home for the summer, and I've had the best one yet! I really missed my home. I know, I know, I'm such a baby for getting so homesick after just being away for 5 months. But it's been tough! The only other time I've kinda been away from home was during first year, and that didn't really count since I would go home every few weeks, mostly whenever I needed to do laundry.

Anyways, on to my awesome summer. Couple of big trips;  I went to NYC with my high school besties for a 4 day trip, and that was just soo amazing, as well as exhausting. I also went to a cottage in a very peaceful area with my family for a week. I don't think I could live there for a long period of time though. The quietness was a little unnerving, and also there was such a weak cell signal.

Other than that, I got to see my friends multiple times to hang out. I didn't realize I missed them so much until I came back. I've made friends in Texas but obviously, I don't connect to anyone at this level yet. Soon, I hope.

I still have a couple more trips coming up! I'm leaving this week to go to Disney World! I'm so excited! I've only been to Disneyland before and that too was a while ago, so I don't remember it too clearly. I'm also going to the Wizarding World which I've been awaiting for years!

And now the most important part: I'm going to see Arashi's 15th anniversary concert in Hawaii!!! I cannot believe that it's actually happening! I had pretty much resigned myself to thinking that I'll just never get to see them in concert in my lifetime, and for the first time, they're letting US and Canadian residents buy tickets! I'm so grateful that my parents are letting me go to this even though it's in the middle of my term!

Just 7 more days until I can go home.

7 days until I have to ask my parents for something.

All the other things I have planned don't even matter right now, like seeing my friends, spending time with my family, having some down time, etc.

Maybe I'm building this up too much in my mind. My brain tends to do that. It comes with these exaggerated scenarios that couldn't possibly happen.

I just want to sit them down, and get it over with. I'm just going to keep telling myself it won't be so bad.

In other news, I haven't seriously started studying for exams yet. One week till my accounting one, and that's going to be the big one. I still have a paper to write for Marketing and my Data Mining assignment to submit. I need to pour my energy into this rather than worrying about things that won't happen.

I finished my last exam on Wednesday. It's an understatement  to say it didn't go well. But, I've become strangely resistant to that feeling now, and it's worrying.

I knew how important it was that I did well, but I still didn't put in the effort. Others can say that you worked hard, but I'm the only one who knows, right? I did work hard, but at the same time, I also lost my motivation, so in the end it would probably not be seen as hard work.

The one thing I wanted the most, the one thing that I honestly had been 100% sure that I would be able to get at the beginning of this year, was destroyed by me.

Still, there is a slight chance, however tiny it may be. I am safe for now, but, if I sabotage myself again, then I won't be able to go. So, I can't fool around in the summer.

I have a lot of fears and uncertainties going through my mind right now, about which I want to talk to someone. I don't think it'll help, seeing as they can only offer either comforting words or false hope. Also, I'm afraid that once I voice them out, they will become real, and it won't be as easy to pass off as me over-thinking something.

So I'm back from Quebec and Trois-Pistoles~ I guess that was about two weeks ago! I miss it soo much! But I'll blog about that later because my laptop has crashed and I have no way of obtaining my pictures right now.. T_T
But it was a truly unforgettable trip! :)
I miss everyone so much, especially all the vegetarians that I ate with and my housemates, but some of them live kinda close by, so hopefully we can meet up again someday! <3

I'm really bored right now.. I'm somewhat ready for school to start, but I do want to meet all my friends who go to university in another city before that.

Here's some random and awesome illustrations that I found on piccsy.com

Paris~ Je veux y aller!

I can't believe it's finally next week..
I'm so incredibly saddened and excited for this moment. Even when the last book came out, it didn't really feel like it was finished since there were still a few more movies to come out.

I'm just so happy to be able to watch them all and have grown up with it. It's been 10 long years, but it's finally here.

I just know I'm going to cry a little while watching Part 2. Part 1 was extremely well done, except for a few minor details, but that's only me being a little anal about it being really close to the book. It really captured the emotions well. So I really want to see how the Part 2 turns out.

 

I had so much fun yesterday~ But I'll write later, since I'm going out soon!

So here's a funny picture!

It's already June! And in a few short weeks I'll be going to Quebec! I'm so excited!

There's two more classes left, and the final exam is on the 15th! So close! >_< I really have to get a move on with the readings and notes! There's going to be short answers on it this time.. So I must focus!

What else? I got my hair cut the other day~ So happy! I think the last time I cut it was almost a year ago, so it had grown pretty long! Like almost to my chest! I wasn't really planning on cutting too much, because I've only had long hair for a little while and didn't feel like going short again! But I suppose a year of neglect does lead to some damage! Especially after I dyed my hair again 2 weeks ago. So I ended up cutting almost 4 inches off! And it feels soo much better! No more dry ends! And I got lots of layers again! I really don't like having it one length~! I think I actually saw some split ends the other day o_o So good thing I did this!

Met up with Sarah the other day to hang out in Kensington market! It was soo fun.. and a little strange! There`s a lot of really cool, vintage stores there! They're also kinda pricey! But some of them are really nice stuff!

Ah, I want to write more, but 'tis late, and I have work in the morning. So glad it's an easy one this week! :D