˚°¤☆The colour of the future ☆¤°˚

I'll post the Arashi Blast parts later because I'm pretty busy, and kinda pooped tonight.

So this semester, I decided to be a little more outgoing, and I joined the Korean Culture Club on campus. I haven't really listened to much kpop other than DBSK and SG Wanabe, but I watch Korean movies sometimes. I did try to go to the Japanese club, but it was just soo boring. It was like a lecture. A very disorganized lecture that made me just want to be on my phone the whole time. Also, I had class right after, so I could only stay for a little while.

Anyways, the first meeting that I went to, they were talking about holding the Dream Concert in Nov, and they wanted to have 'auditions' that day. I really wasn't very confident in my dancing skills, but I just thought 'why not?' and decided to do it. So they taught a little 30 second guy and girl dances with a freestyle portion (>_<) but I somehow did by just incorporating Arashi dances. Then, a week later there was a 2nd 'audition', and the dances I got were A by Got7 and Sleep-talking by Nu'est.

Fast forward to now~ the actual concert is on Friday, Nov 21, and we've been practicing like crazy! I think on Friday, we did about 4 hours, and today was about 3 hours. And at least 2 or 3 hours tomorrow, because it's the final check before the concert. And surely some more time during the week, not including 2 dress rehearsals. So exhausting!! I'm glad it's not too busy a week for me.

But as I typed that, I realized it wasn't true. I have 2 quizzes, a paper and an assignment due on Monday, and a presentation to do on Tuesday, and then I'm free the rest of the week. And there's also a couple of events that I want to go to. -Sigh- It's going to be tiring. Ok, no fooling around and binge watching stuff on Netflix! I gotta be responsible and budget my time! It's such a difficult task, honestly.

No procrastination, Aarathi! Focus and finish everything in time! I wasted all of Thursday, Friday and Saturday, so I have to focus and work hard tonight and tomorrow! I'll take my books to the final check if I have to!

I'll only allow Netflix right now because I haven't eaten dinner yet >_<  But after that, nothing until Tuesday night!

Ahh, this is not good, eating at almost 1 AM.

I guess I should start to write about this! Ok, so let's start from Thursday, Sept 19!

So, in order to get there around the same time as my friends, my flight was at 6 AM, and since I have no car, I had to book an airport shuttle, which was coming at 3 AM. And me being me, I didn't get to bed till midnight or so? Because the most important thing I had to do the previous day was, clearly, to make my awesome uchiwa.

And also finish my part of the assignment before I left. And did I mention that I had a test the following Tuesday for the most dull, yet complicated class this semester? How screwed was I? Immensely, because I also missed the first 2 classes while I was at Disney. Way to show how low of a priority school is for you. T_T

But what's more important? Life experiences that will make you happy for a long time or a (very expensive) piece of paper? I'm digressing. Anyways, I stayed up late, took a shower and woke up ridiculously early to finish packing. I waited outside for the shuttle, when it started to thunder, followed by intense rainfall. It was getting super close to my pick up time, so obviously I was obsessively checking the flight status to make sure it's not delayed. I think my friend was also up around this time, so I was chatting while she got ready to go to the airport. The shuttle finally came, about 15 mins late because of the massive downpour.

So we were just driving along, and I was the only person on there, therefore no matter how much I wanted to sleep, I stayed awake and was checking Google maps to see where we were. I'm not a paranoid person, but I've watched way too many Criminal Minds episodes to be completely at ease. At one point, it went into a residential area, away from the airport, and I had so much adrenaline running through me, until I realized we were just picking up someone else. It was like 4 AM, on a dark and stormy morning, so you can get why I, a young lady alone in a van, was on such high alert!

Anyways, got to the airport, got to the gate, anxiously kept checking for flight delays, but thankfully there were none! The flight actually took off in the midst of the rain and lightning, which looked soo cool when I was within it! I ended up sleeping through the rest of the flight though. I landed in LA, decided to get some breakfast, and relax, since I had a 3 hr layover.

I was talking to someone on tumblr a few weeks before, who was also flying from Austin and going to the concert, and I decided to text her. Turns out she also had a long layover, so we hung out, got some food and talked till I had to board my flight.

Somehow, I ended up sitting in the middle of a 3 seat section, which doesn't make sense because I ALWAYS pick the window seat! It was annoying, but I dealt with it. I tried to study a little, but I actually fell asleep while reading. When I woke up again, I decided to watch Roommate (Japanese movie). That was seriously messed up. Anyways, we were about to land, and I was super excited!



I finally arrived in Honolulu! I couldn't believe I was actually here! There was some time before my friends were supposed to come so I walked around a little bit. They finally arrived, and we were so excited! We went to baggage claim so they could get their stuff, and then booked a shuttle to the hotel. Our shuttle guy was really fun to talk to, and we were freaking out every time we saw an Arashi Blast sign (and there were a lot)!

We were supposed to keep it on the DL that there was a 3rd person staying in the hotel room, because we didn't want to pay extra, so I stood far away while they checked in. I thought there'd be 2 beds but it was a giant king bed. It was big enough for all of us though. We rested for a bit and decided to go to the Arashi Blast store in Shirokiya at Ala Moana Shopping Center, because every 10 mins someone on FB would say that something else was getting sold out.




We got our stuff, went to the Japanese food court, and got something because I hadn't eaten in hours, since it was already midnight for my body, even though it was only 5 PM in Hawaii. I finally got to eat Hiroshimayaki! So delicious~ I've been wanting to try it since I saw it on Cooking with Dog! We shopped around a bit more, and went to the Disney store and Hot Topic (aka The Store That Must Not Be Named). We got back to the hotel, and decided to go to the beach. Did I mention that there was a beach across from our hotel!?



It was pretty dark, but really pleasant outside, so we wanted to dip our feet. And of course, we got ridiculously sandy, and had to put towels everywhere while we waited for the shower. After that we decided to sleep "early" because we had to be up by 6 AM to get ready for snorkeling.


It's super late, and I really should be sleeping so I'll write the other two parts tomorrow night. It's probably going to end up being the same way, with me staying up later than I intended -_-

I haven't really started any new anime since Free Eternal Summer, but I was kinda bored while I was making dinner today, so I decided to start The Devil Is A Part-timer, since it was on Netflix!

It's hilarious! I was kinda hoping it'd be somewhat like Beelzebub (which I still need to finish, but I think I might just start over and marathon it). Anyways, this did not disappoint! I'm almost done the series, and I wish there was a season 2! Ahh, Maou is so lame, but so cool! <3 nbsp="" p="">
But what am I doing, starting all these new shows when there's a month left until exams and there are so many projects and stuff to finish? I'm enjoying myself here finally, so that's all that matters, really. I felt so homesick and exhausted last semester, but I decided to do more stuff this time, and meet more people with similar interests. I guess once I started feeling more happy, I was able to let go of some hangups and be a little more social (only when I want to be though).

By the way, this happiness cloud, that I've been on lately, is from the Arashi concert. Even if it was a month and a half ago, I'm still so happy. It's been my dream (or rather, on my bucket list) for a long time, and it was something I thought would never happen. It's difficult to explain what Arashi is to me. I guess their songs, their shows, their personalities helped me through a lot of things, and I was able to open my mind to a whole different perspective sometimes. One thing that hasn't changed: they can always make me smile.

Interesting enough late night ramblings from me? I should sleep. I got sick somehow last week, and it's being very stubborn. I guess it also doesn't help that I'm up so late everyday. Get this under control already! You're 24 1/2! (Haha)

So, I went to Honolulu over the weekend for the Arashi Blast concert, and just came back yesterday!

There's absolutely no doubt in my mind that it was a mistake to go in the middle of the school year, or kinda be in debt.

There's so many things I want to talk about, like how it was the best night/weekend of my life so far.

But, alas, I have a test tomorrow and class in an hour, so a proper report will have to wait until later.

It's been such  a while since I last updated!

So I did well on my exams, I came home for the summer, and I've had the best one yet! I really missed my home. I know, I know, I'm such a baby for getting so homesick after just being away for 5 months. But it's been tough! The only other time I've kinda been away from home was during first year, and that didn't really count since I would go home every few weeks, mostly whenever I needed to do laundry.

Anyways, on to my awesome summer. Couple of big trips;  I went to NYC with my high school besties for a 4 day trip, and that was just soo amazing, as well as exhausting. I also went to a cottage in a very peaceful area with my family for a week. I don't think I could live there for a long period of time though. The quietness was a little unnerving, and also there was such a weak cell signal.

Other than that, I got to see my friends multiple times to hang out. I didn't realize I missed them so much until I came back. I've made friends in Texas but obviously, I don't connect to anyone at this level yet. Soon, I hope.

I still have a couple more trips coming up! I'm leaving this week to go to Disney World! I'm so excited! I've only been to Disneyland before and that too was a while ago, so I don't remember it too clearly. I'm also going to the Wizarding World which I've been awaiting for years!

And now the most important part: I'm going to see Arashi's 15th anniversary concert in Hawaii!!! I cannot believe that it's actually happening! I had pretty much resigned myself to thinking that I'll just never get to see them in concert in my lifetime, and for the first time, they're letting US and Canadian residents buy tickets! I'm so grateful that my parents are letting me go to this even though it's in the middle of my term!

I'm 24! I can't believe it~!

My day's been incredibly boring though. Unfortunately, tomorrow is the start of exam season and I have an exam at 5, along with an essay. And then one more on Tuesday at 11 AM. So, I've been procrastinating, studying and doing my essay, and I still haven't accomplished much.

I shouldn't have procrastinated so much, but it is my birthday, and I'm allowed to relax, and talk to friends and family. I can't wait for the next two days to be over so I can go home. I have to remember to clean my room before I leave, and also start packing my suitcase sometime tomorrow. And do laundry. In addition to studying. Ugh.

This accounting final is stressing me out so much. I need a B and I have a B now but I'm right on the edge, and I need to do really well. But stressing out isn't helping me focus at all!

Even now, I'm procrastinating. I must get back!

Just 7 more days until I can go home.

7 days until I have to ask my parents for something.

All the other things I have planned don't even matter right now, like seeing my friends, spending time with my family, having some down time, etc.

Maybe I'm building this up too much in my mind. My brain tends to do that. It comes with these exaggerated scenarios that couldn't possibly happen.

I just want to sit them down, and get it over with. I'm just going to keep telling myself it won't be so bad.

In other news, I haven't seriously started studying for exams yet. One week till my accounting one, and that's going to be the big one. I still have a paper to write for Marketing and my Data Mining assignment to submit. I need to pour my energy into this rather than worrying about things that won't happen.

I haven't written here for a while. But, I guess that's because I have Tumblr, and I've been kinda busy. It's not like anyone actually reads this.

Lately, my weekends have been like this one, except for last week when I went to see a movie with my friends. You know how you have those times where you don't want any human contact? I guess, in my case, I don't want to talk to anyone face-to-face or on the phone. Despite feeling like that, I was still feeling pretty lonely. I mean, I did talk to my cousin, and my parents yesterday morning, but then I just got this feeling, and I've just been ignoring my mom's messages to call her. I'm doing this a lot, and just passing it off as forgetting or being busy with school, even though I'm not.

It's a pretty crummy feeling. I'm feeling homesick, but I'm pretty nervous to actually have to go home. Being by myself isn't satisfying. Being at home might not feel satisfying. There's a conversation I need to have with my parents when I go home, and probably every time we talk on the phone, I think about it, and I clam up. I'm really nervous about it. I need to ask for something, and I'm scared about their reactions.

I mean, at least I have something to talk about to someone next time.

Oh god, oh god, I'm panicking a little bit, because I have just realized what I did.
Not like it's a bad thing, but it's making my head explode a little every time I think about it.
I want to talk to my best friend about but she's all the way at her university and I probably won't see her till both our exams are finished.

Sometimes, I think that I'd give anything to be one of those people who really have a grip on what they'd like to do with their lives. I mean, it's not like it's a bad thing, taking it one day at a time and having ever-changing dreams.

I just wonder what it would have been like if I really stuck with what my dreams from when I was a kid.

I'm still young, I guess, so it's ok to not have everything decided right now. But I feel like it'll be a life of something that I'm just tolerating, instead of living.

I want to have something that I'm so passionate about so that nothing else matters. I have to find it somehow.

Yes, I am procrastinating. I should be doing the French homework or be recopying my micro notes, instead I decided to do this because I haven't written in a while.

My summer courses are passing by really quickly! I'm happy I'm only taking 2 instead of the 3 I was originally planning to take this term.. that would have definitely stressed me out too much! It was a 4th year International Studies course about war and its philosophies, and I couldn't understand anything since I'm an econ major, and not a sociology major.

Anyways, I just wanted to share some pictures~ Granted, I've already done so on Facebook and tumblr, but I'm so proud of them that I want to post it everywhere! Well, that was a bit of a lie.. I am proud of it, but everytime I look at them, my eyes criticize every small mistake I made and I scold myself  about the million ways I could have made it better.

The Golden Snitch

Loki's helmet

The Mockingjay pin

I suppose I could call these my series of objects from books/movies! I think I just started up with making stuff out of clay again when I felt it was absolutely necessary that I have a Snitch necklace haha. And then, last month, I decided to make Sarah a Mockingjay pin because we're both huge fans of the Hunger Games! Finally, I have become very obsessed with Loki in the past few months, so I decided to make a ring out of his helmet! <3

I'll be turning 22 tomorrow. While I'm writing this, I'm going to try to not be pessimistic and criticize myself for my mistakes over the past 22 years.  Mistakes have been made, but I do have a great life, with my family and friends supporting me.
What's done is done, right? And all I can do is try to be a better person from now on. I don't know if I've really changed much from last year. Maybe, I've grown up a little more and I'm thinking of things outside my own little bubble. Though, it's a bubble I'm not ready to leave yet.

I guess four years ago, I thought I'd be graduating by now, and, either going to graduate school or finding a job. Well, I'm not doing a lot of things that I thought I would be doing by now, but I don't think I'm in a bad place right now. I could possibly be going to Japan or I could have one last year at university and really prepare myself to get out into the real world, and figure out what I want to do. Because it feels like I'm wasting away my life doing nothing worthwhile each day.

Maybe I should set a goal for myself, to accomplish something, even if it's a tiny thing, just so I can feel good about myself lol. I actually wrote some stuff down after I finished my exams, like I'll do 5 kanji a day, or I'll study 4 french verbs a day. Yeah, didn't really do that, mostly because it bored me I guess?

Haha, so I'm going to keep thinking and see where that goes.

I finished my last exam on Wednesday. It's an understatement  to say it didn't go well. But, I've become strangely resistant to that feeling now, and it's worrying.

I knew how important it was that I did well, but I still didn't put in the effort. Others can say that you worked hard, but I'm the only one who knows, right? I did work hard, but at the same time, I also lost my motivation, so in the end it would probably not be seen as hard work.

The one thing I wanted the most, the one thing that I honestly had been 100% sure that I would be able to get at the beginning of this year, was destroyed by me.

Still, there is a slight chance, however tiny it may be. I am safe for now, but, if I sabotage myself again, then I won't be able to go. So, I can't fool around in the summer.

I have a lot of fears and uncertainties going through my mind right now, about which I want to talk to someone. I don't think it'll help, seeing as they can only offer either comforting words or false hope. Also, I'm afraid that once I voice them out, they will become real, and it won't be as easy to pass off as me over-thinking something.

I had a lot of fun yesterday~! I met other people going to Japan, and one of them is going to the same university! And I also met a girl who returned from the university that I'm going to attend! I got a lot of my questions answered, and also learned that it's not going to be a complete breeze, suddenly living in a different country!

As nervous and excited as I am, I really can't research and think about this right now! I have 2 more exams to get through (where I need to get excellent grades) to pull up my GPA! And then I can do whatever preparations I want for Japan without feeling guilty!

Why am I even on my blog? I don't know.. I'm going back to studying! I have 4 chapters of math to go through before Sunday!! And why do I have a Sunday exam in the first place?! It's my 2nd year in a row having a Sunday one.. >.<


Here's an excellent Harry Potter Medley that I'm listening to on repeat!