˚°¤☆The colour of the future ☆¤°˚

Haha I guess I'm trying to get in the habit of doing this daily!

So I guess we're leaving soon for the hotel~ I'm literally packing like 10 mins before we leave, but how much stuff do I  need to take anyways? It's just 1 pair of pajamas, maybe 1 or 2 pairs of pants, 2 shirts, undies, and a sweater. Also my ipod, phone, charger, e-reader and camera, but those are small and won't take up much space!

I kinda want to wear contacts today, but it looks like a gloomy day anyways =3 I guess I'll stick with glasses for the rest of the weekend!

Ｙａｙ～楽しみいぃ

It's sooo adorable! I want to get one already! <3

Haha twice in one day is amazing!



Love this song! <3
I'm on episode 38 of the 2nd season now! Only 4 more to go! Ken-kun is so sweet now!

Mmm..now that exams are over, I am filled with an empty hole called boredom.

I think I'm getting back into my hime craze again~! Because spring/summer is definitely the best for this type of thing (And Canadian winters suck because you can't compromise warmth for cute clothes)! Skirts, dresses, lacey stuff, pink stuff, bows, ribbons, flowers and just generally pretty stuffI! <3
Haha I don't really own much stuff like that, but with the help of my mom and the sewing machine, maybe I'll be able to change some stuff! I has such a big obsession with lace and ruffles  :*.;.*・;・^;・:＼(*^▽^*)/:・;^・;・*.;.*:

*sigh* Have to finish cleaning and throwing stuff out before the weekend...! Since it's a long weekend, they'll take away as many garbage bags as we put out! And my family and I are going to this resort too! It's near Algonquin Park and there's a lake, trails and a spa (probably not going there)! Must not take the laptop! And I should spend as much time as I can outside!

Ok, back to cleaning! :3

One more exam to go! Just a little under 5 hours left...!
I panicked so much for Calculus yesterday... and it was actually somewhat hard.. Thank goodness I ended up focusing more on trig substitutions and integration by parts! But the graphs were bad, as usual -_-

Today is the statistics exam. It won't be so bad.. since we're allowed to take in a formula sheet! That's what I have a problem with on a test usually anyways. I can never remember the full formula! I'll get most of it right, but I mess up on one term and I get a totally ridiculous answer, like a negative variance! Haha, once on my Management econ test, there was a question about what the optimal level of workers were, and I messed up the formula.

Real Answer: 4
My Answer: 2 400 000

The prof mentioned it too when we were going over the answers. If he said my name or looked at me at that point, I would have died of embarrassment!  

But I can't wait till I'm done! I will definitely start cleaning my room after today! I left all the stuff I bought at Micheals in the car so I can only use it after cleaning up and shifting everything around!

I went to the library after a long time yesterday. I got a bunch of French grammar books to help me review BECAUSE I'M GOING TO A FRENCH IMMERSION SCHOOL IN TROIS PISTOLES DURING THE SUMMER! XD I'm sooo excited!
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And I borrowed some movies too~ Shaun of the Dead and The Wicker Man. I've seen The Wicker Man already, but I thought it was kinda interesting, so I wanted to watch it again with my mom. And Shaun of the Dead has been recommended and I want to watch something funny after this exam..

I just saw the trailer for The Descent, which is also on my list... Scared the crap out of me, but I want to watch it!

Gahhh back to studying! I've successfully wasted 25 minutes! I can't believe it's raining again today.. what a gloomy day..

Today's picture is not some random Arashi picture. Tis the squishy onigiri pillow that I made!

Oh man, I seriously can't even get up to go to my 2nd last day of classes..! Even though I know that I have to go get calculus notes from last week's class, and seeing as I have a French test tomorrow, I should also be going to the last review class.. right? But damn it... It's Monday, and I really don't feel like leaving the house! >.<
But I know that I have to gooo...

I mean, I'll be lazing around at home on Wed anyways, since classes end tomorrow!   

Maybe I should just ask someone to send me the notes...  but then I've got to be totally productive today! So I shall do some calculus, finish doing the exercises in my cahier, and, because it somewhat calms me down, I'll write some kanji! I have to fool around less!

Today's picture: Their smiles can warm my heart on such a cold, cold day~

Can you believe that it was snowing again yesterday?! Canada... *shakes fist* Let it be spring weather already!

I don't think my calculus test is going to go very well today.. Although, I don't think it's so bad that I'll flunk it. *sigh* Just have to try I guess...
I honestly wasted so much time... even though I skipped a couple of days! The closer it gets to the end, the lazier/less motivated I get.
Gotta leave in 30 mins... >< I'll just get it over with...
Riida can cheer me up a little <3

Last week~!
It was kind of hell at work this weekend.. but I don't really want to talk about it! I'm bad at dealing with jerks...

That aside, I got my final mark for economics back already!! While I was at the maid cafe, I happened to look at my phone, and I noticed an email from my professor. The test was the same day, so I knew he would mark it before the day was over. However I didn't expect him to calculate the final mark already too! When I got back home, I gathered my courage, and opened the pdf with the marks of the whole class. And...

This was seriously one of the hardest courses I've ever taken.. And it doesn't help that I was really not prepared for this. Why can't they update the official requirements to show that you really do need other courses if you want to be able to understand the contents better? Because that's exactly what my professor did for the 2011-2012 session. :( But, whatever.. it's done now! I'm honestly not even upset that I passed with such a meager mark.. I just never wanted to take it again. Like my dad says, some courses you have to do and pass, the marks don't matter! I'm confident that my other courses (i.e. my language courses) will balance this out, so I'm not too worried! Gotta keep my GPA up so I can go to 日本 in a couple of years! 

Also, they've already released the fall schedule for my campus, so I planned out my courses yesterday! My schedule literally looks like a T! Haha, I have morning classes from Monday to Thursday, and then on Wed, I have classes for 9 straight hours, from 9 AM - 6 PM. Maybe the timings of my classes will change later... :( Hopefully, something or the other will finish early, so I can have at least a little break! The only class I don't know about is Japanese! But that lecture schedule will probably be released in May/June. 

I'm clearly only writing this because I'm distracting myself from studying for calculus. So I shouldn't do that... I have to go at 3, so I can make it in time for my Japanese test! 

Ok, I'm making a definite promise here! On Friday, after most  tests are done, I will begin cleaning my room! I'll start with the side with the bookshelf, and clean all weekend if I have to! So it can look as pretty as the ones I like to look at in インテリア雑誌!

And one last thing, I've been rewatching Digimon Adventures (the 1st season), and relieving my childhood! Of course, I'm only doing something like this when I'm supposed to be busy as hell studying for all my tests.. >_<

J`aime les Mardis le plus!
Comme ma classe commence à 16h, je peux étudier chez moi!
Mais cette semaine est le pire.. Demain, j`ai un examen de statistiques. Et Jeudi, j`ai le dernière examen d`economie et un examen du Japonais. La semaine prochaine sera la même chose. J`ai un autre examen du Japoinais, un examen du calcul, et un examen de Français! 
Je veux l`été à venir!
Maintenant, je pratique mon kanji pour l`examen en Jeudi. Je suis très excité pour Jeudi! Àprés les examens, je irai à Hamilton pour rencontrer mes amis! Ils font un 'Maid Café' à Mac. Je ne les ai pas rencontrés depuis 3 mois!
Yay~ J`ai fini les kanji!
-_- C`est le temps pour les maths... ><

頑張って、アーちゃん！

I can't believe that my 2nd year is going to finish in a few weeks! It's the crucial part now, isn't it?
I've got to work hard with the math courses and bring my mark up! There's still 70% of the mark left to be calculated, so I should be able to do it! What on earth is going in calculus now anyways? What is a hyperbola? I told myself I'd look it up when I got home, so maybe I should do that.


A hyperbolic function is a function of an angle expressed as a relationship between the distances from a point on a hyperbola to the origin and to the coordinate axes, as hyperbolic sine or hyperbolic cosine: often expressed as combinations of exponential functions. - From dictionary.com

o_o ... I think I need to think that through a little... 

Hmm I have to improve my French mark too! I still need to learn more words so I can actually speak without having to struggle and come up with the word in a different language. I've got a mini-contrôle tomorrow.. hope I can remember all the new words! I always have the most trouble with that part!

I haven't made a single thing recently.. so I'm feeling a little depressed~ The last time I made something was my little star-dust ball pendant (which ended up breaking, so I still have to fix it). And then I kinda lost my round nose pliers somewhere in my room, and it's been very difficult to locate. That probably has something to do with the mess.. ^.^" I need to cleeeannnn! I think my messy environment is also getting me down! I really want to make something! I can't wait till after April 5th! At least after that I'll be able to relax a little more while studying math! And after Apr 16th and 17th, I'll be completely free, and hopefully with a clean room!

Sure, I get super motivated to clean when my friends are coming over, but otherwise, I don't think I'm bothered because of my messiness.. It's certainly not a good habit to have...If I ever live in an apartment with someone, I think my roommate probably won't ever come into my room! :(

Ok, getting off topic! Gotta clean the room! That's what I need to do.. THIS WEEK! I'm pooped on the weekend anyways after work, so obviously not on those days. Whyyy is there so much to do with so little time!? I think, since I'm off Friday and the house will be peaceful with no one to bother me, I shall clean then! But I need something to make me do it on the actual day.. I don't think my determination to clean everything up can last for another 3 days! o_o

I'll be 21 soon. So.. I have to do this! On my own! And then I want to decorate! I've kept all my posters under my bed for 6 months because everything was still messy! I want my Arashi wall... D:

Oh no.. it's already 1:25 AM...I have to sleep and go to class early. Hopefully I get a lot of sleep on the bus/train, depending on when I wake up. And with that, I'm off to bed! Here's some cute pictures I found!

































I really want to make something like this already!! I already bought the silicone and icing tip already too.. =3

Soon.. soon.. Just have to be patient till tests are over!

I'm so very very scared for Thursday! It's too late to back out of my econ class so I'm really scared of the test! But I still have almost 4 days to make sure I completely memorize this chapter!
I really wish someone would have told me this wasn't a course to be taken in first year... ;_;
Somehow.. somehow I'll get through it! Thank goodness my French and Japanese marks are really up there! I think I would cry if all my other marks started getting dragged down like this one course..!

I'm feeling good recently! All the negativity from before seems to have disappeared. And I've started to get along with everyone much better too. Haha I think for like 2 or 3 weeks I skipped a bunch of classes, and I was moody during the tutorials, but I'm better now! I've started feeling that coming here and suddenly changing universities wasn't a wrong choice. But I think that one year there will always have a special place in my heart. I'm glad they haven't forgotten me either. <3


Hmm, so what else? I was looking through my DS games on the computer, and I found this one called '99 no namida'. The purpose of this game is to make you cry. So sometimes, you have days when you're really stressed and nothing feels like it's going right. You want to cry, but for some reason you can't. So play the game, read a story, and cry.

I actually quite like this game. The graphics give off this melancholy feeling, but they're still beautiful. Rather than depressing, I think it's peaceful. So anyways, you go to this bar at the beginning of the game, and the master asks you a few questions about your mood, how your day has been, etc. And then he gives you a story.  After the story, you write your impressions and rate how sad it was to you, ranging from 'I didn't feel anything' (I think.. I don't remember the exact words) to 'Tears came out'.

I've played it twice so far. I didn't really cry at the first story. It was about a mother and daughter who don't get along because the girl works as a hostess. However, the mother is suddenly hospitalized, and when the daughter comes to visit, she sees her mother looking sick and in a coma, so she tries to make her look pretty by giving her a pedicure. She comes everyday and takes care of her like this and eventually the mother wakes up and tells her to follow her dream, which is to open a nail salon someday. So the daughter quits her job and starts working in a nail salon, hoping to make other women feel happy by giving them pretty nails. So it's a nice story... just not enough to cry at.

I cried while reading the 2nd one. This boy was living with his mother after his parents divorced and his mother had to work a lot of jobs to support their lifestyle. However, every morning, she would give him a bento before going off to work. His friends tease him about it so he tells her that he'll buy his lunch from now on, but his mother still makes him a bento every morning. He wakes up in the middle of the night one day, and he happens to see his mother in the kitchen looking up recipes and murmuring "Maybe he'll like this." So he decides that the next day, he'll tell her that he'll take the bento. However, when he's starting to leave the next morning, he finds his mother on the floor. At the hospital, the doctor tells him that she's exhausted and stressed. His aunt comes to find him and tells him what his mother's been going through. She thought that she couldn't give him a perfect lifestyle since he doesn't have a father, but at least she wanted to give him a bento everyday so he wouldn't feel like he's losing out on anything. So the next day, he properly apologizes to his mom, and thanks her for thinking about him so much.

I kinda went through a rebellious phase like that too, so I cried a little! I wonder what tonight's story will be~ ちょっと楽しみ! Haha although that can't be the right word!

Speaking of crying, I also cried when I watched this video. I haven't really looked up the translation of the lyrics, but the video itself is such a sad and beautiful love story.. :(





And with that, I'm going to sleep and somehow wake up at 6:30! Also, Happy Valentine's Day! I really want to  ~ :\

Lately, I've been really into Utsukushii Rinjin!

"A sudden encounter between a gracefully attractive but mysterious woman, Saki (Nakama Yukie), and an ordinary housewife, Eriko (Dan Rei), who has a happy family, causes Eriko’s serene daily life to fall apart. Eriko’s husband, Shinji (Watabe Atsuro) becomes the target of Saki’s advances and finds himself caught between her and his wife." - From dramawiki

Haha I never imagined I'd be someone who would be so addicted to this type of drama! Even more so than my beloved detective dramas! Drama between housewives is way too interesting! Haha, I'm interested in ones with affairs lately!

Saki-san is just too amazing! She's so skillful, when she becomes close with everyone around Eriko-san, it seems like she's trying to replace her! But some fault lies with those people too, I suppose, because they're so easily convinced that Saki-san is a better replacement..! Uwaa, she just psychologically scared a kid too... who was bullying Shun-kun! I can guess that she wants a life to replace her previous one without a child, husband or friends...! I hope Eriko-san can figure out that Saki-san's not really a friend and she's the one turning everyone in her life against her...

Another thing I never thought I'd get into is Beelzebub! It's just way too funny!


















"The story follows the "strongest juvenile delinquent", Oga Tatsumi, a first year in "Ishiyama High" the school for delinquents. One day while sleeping next to a river he sees a man floating down it, he pulls him to shore and the man splits in half revealing a baby boy. This boy is the son of the demon king and he has been chosen as the one to raise it with the baby's demon maid Hilda. The story follows his life with the child and at the delinquent school." -ANN

I honestly don't watch much anime, except for Detective Conan (which I'm still in the process of finishing). I'm more of a drama type. But I was just looking through a list of ones from this season with my friend at uni, and we clicked on this to see what it's like. It was the randomest thing ever! Soo funny! This is the one type I usually stay away from, because it's got delinquents, a lot of noise, and things that don't make sense! But I ended up really liking it! I even got my little brother to watch it with me! I think the transporter guy (his real name's too long so I can never remember it) is my favourite! So every week, I eagerly await the new episode :P

I'm getting hungry.. time to go eat breakfast! Today's a busy day..! I have to finish 2 assignments, a ton of math homework & French listening excercises.. and if I have time, study for econ and practice kanji!

今日日本語で書きたかった。
最近すごく疲れちゃう
毎日が長いしいつも一人だと感じる
素直にMacに行ったらきっとヨ―クより楽になれると思う
後悔してない、たださみしいです.
だって友達と言う人なんてない...みんなはクラスメ―トだけ
そしてクラスで何が起きてるのがさっぱりわからない
この一年間なんかバカになったそうです
全く集中できない。どうしてだろう？
いつも止めたい止めたと思ってるけどそれはいけない
あたしが寂しくても続けるしかないよねぇ
まぁ心がちょっとかるくなったそうです
グチを書きたかっただけです
読んでくれた人がいるのかな

I'm such a lazy bum...

I really don't want to study... I have 2  exams.. On wed and Fri... and I just don't want to study... and there's a couple of overdue assignments which I have to send in soon before the exam... ><

Lol, I should be working my ass off right now but yet I'm camly watching Himitsu no Arashi-chan..! I seriously suck.. I left EVERYTHING to the last minute! I haven't even finished reading parts of the book for one course... and I have less than 5 days to go! ><

Ahh.. I really want it to be over! I really can't wait for the holidays! I can finally get back to my hobbies! I've picked up a few more that I want to try, but I promised myself I wouldn't start until exams are done! It's sad really. I can have an unbreakable concentration when it comes to my hobbies, like for hours and hours... but I can't handle reading my textbook for 1 hour! How am I going to survive in this world...? ;_;

Whatever... This is just something I have to do! It doesn't matter if I don't like it! I just have to get it over with and get on with my life! I can't afford to fail here! Which means... to be fully focused, my laptop needs to go away for the next week! Well after I email all my assignments in.. which will be TOMORROW NIGHT!

I WILL DO IT
I WILL DO IT
I WILL DO IT
I WILL DO IT
I WILL DO IT
I WILL DO IT

Ok, that got my fired up a little! I think I might just repeat that in my head next week lol

Not going to be doing anything tonight... so I might as well get some rest -_-