I'm so very very scared for Thursday! It's too late to back out of my econ class so I'm really scared of the test! But I still have almost 4 days to make sure I completely memorize this chapter!
I really wish someone would have told me this wasn't a course to be taken in first year... ;_;
Somehow.. somehow I'll get through it! Thank goodness my French and Japanese marks are really up there! I think I would cry if all my other marks started getting dragged down like this one course..!

I'm feeling good recently! All the negativity from before seems to have disappeared. And I've started to get along with everyone much better too. Haha I think for like 2 or 3 weeks I skipped a bunch of classes, and I was moody during the tutorials, but I'm better now! I've started feeling that coming here and suddenly changing universities wasn't a wrong choice. But I think that one year there will always have a special place in my heart. I'm glad they haven't forgotten me either. <3

Hmm, so what else? I was looking through my DS games on the computer, and I found this one called '99 no namida'. The purpose of this game is to make you cry. So sometimes, you have days when you're really stressed and nothing feels like it's going right. You want to cry, but for some reason you can't. So play the game, read a story, and cry.

I actually quite like this game. The graphics give off this melancholy feeling, but they're still beautiful. Rather than depressing, I think it's peaceful. So anyways, you go to this bar at the beginning of the game, and the master asks you a few questions about your mood, how your day has been, etc. And then he gives you a story.  After the story, you write your impressions and rate how sad it was to you, ranging from 'I didn't feel anything' (I think.. I don't remember the exact words) to 'Tears came out'.

I've played it twice so far. I didn't really cry at the first story. It was about a mother and daughter who don't get along because the girl works as a hostess. However, the mother is suddenly hospitalized, and when the daughter comes to visit, she sees her mother looking sick and in a coma, so she tries to make her look pretty by giving her a pedicure. She comes everyday and takes care of her like this and eventually the mother wakes up and tells her to follow her dream, which is to open a nail salon someday. So the daughter quits her job and starts working in a nail salon, hoping to make other women feel happy by giving them pretty nails. So it's a nice story... just not enough to cry at.

I cried while reading the 2nd one. This boy was living with his mother after his parents divorced and his mother had to work a lot of jobs to support their lifestyle. However, every morning, she would give him a bento before going off to work. His friends tease him about it so he tells her that he'll buy his lunch from now on, but his mother still makes him a bento every morning. He wakes up in the middle of the night one day, and he happens to see his mother in the kitchen looking up recipes and murmuring "Maybe he'll like this." So he decides that the next day, he'll tell her that he'll take the bento. However, when he's starting to leave the next morning, he finds his mother on the floor. At the hospital, the doctor tells him that she's exhausted and stressed. His aunt comes to find him and tells him what his mother's been going through. She thought that she couldn't give him a perfect lifestyle since he doesn't have a father, but at least she wanted to give him a bento everyday so he wouldn't feel like he's losing out on anything. So the next day, he properly apologizes to his mom, and thanks her for thinking about him so much.

I kinda went through a rebellious phase like that too, so I cried a little! I wonder what tonight's story will be~ ちょっと楽しみ! Haha although that can't be the right word!

Speaking of crying, I also cried when I watched this video. I haven't really looked up the translation of the lyrics, but the video itself is such a sad and beautiful love story.. :(

And with that, I'm going to sleep and somehow wake up at 6:30! Also, Happy Valentine's Day! I really want to  ~ :\


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